Thursday, February 17, 2011

It's Crazy!

Bang Bang bang bang (pause) Bang bang drills hammers
All from the roof which has been soft off and on for the last 6 months or so and today very loud. Our apartment complex had damage last spring from a very hard hail storm. Before the newness can happen the old shingles had to be taken off. Today is our day to get a new roof.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation;
old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
2 Corinthians 5:17 NKJV

Newness, not recovery, not patch work, completely new!
I sometimes wonder what sounds are really going through my head when new connections are being formed. My stroke left some damage on the left side of my brain. New connections are being formed, some almost instant from day 1 and some taking this long to not even being close. The newness of roofs have taken some time to have our whole complex with new roofs but there have been interruptions. Funding, supplies to bad snow storms and others I probably do not know about. Sometimes I wonder what interruptions am I having but not anymore. It's crazy!! New!!

New Beginning
I started this blog to tell of my stroke and how my life has changed, the good and the bad, but wanted to talk more about the recovery to get back to "normal" or what I perceived as normal. The more I write and think, the more I don't see this time as recovery. Not recovery, new growth. Do I want to recover the past, for me, no! Yes, I would be lying if I said I didn't want functions on my right side, didn't want to type, etc.. I do but if I focus as recovering the past, I cannot move forward. One of the issues with strokes for most of us, is we loose a part of us. When you have a loss there is a grief process, mourning the loss and moving forward with a new "normal" and anything else is a bonus. Just as grieving for the loss of a family member or best friend, the process can take time, even years. I still have moments missing my grandmother, our rock, 9 years ago, can't wait to see her! but still miss her from time to time. A process...
My right hand was my buddy, my pal, my best friend, my worker. 10-key skills, typing skills, playing piano, sign language, my holder, turner, my main squeeze.
She is a loss.
My right leg, strong, walked, ran, climbed, was there always catching me, my support.
She is a loss.
Not recovery, New Growth!! As a baby, a toddler, learning to grasp, walk, feed, to feel, hot, cold, soft, hard. Newness! Excitement! Building a foundation to continue with in life. That's what I want... the past behind, new and exciting adventures ahead. As new believers, learning to walk and talk as Jesus, sharing His love with you! Excited for the fire within me! Jesus stirring! It's crazy!! I want to share with you!! Jesus wanted to share with others. He died for us, for our sins, paid a price, For Us!! something that we could never pay! New Growth within us to be more like Him. He is the only reason I am where I am today. He mends, our healer but He also helps us know what we do wrong.

New!! Following Jesus!! New Growth!! Won't you follow Jesus today? Accept Him into your heart today. To get the past behind, any hurts, any pain, anything that needs mending. He wants to have a personal relationship that goes on with everlasting life. He loves you! 

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Sarah beth said...

Great video! Love your passion for Christ! I am rejoicing and feeling encouraged that you are leaning onto HIM!

Hillbilly Handiworks said...

Wonderful post!!